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Up close with LT

Star linebacker talks with CNN/SI about his storied past

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Posted: Friday August 06, 1999 12:24 PM

  Lawrence Taylor Jets' head coach Bill Parcells (left) talks with Lawrence Taylor during Jets training camp. AP

CNN/SI producer Jerry Klein sat down with Lawrence Taylor for an exclusive interview leading up to Taylor's induction into the Pro Football Hall of Fame on Saturday. Taylor anchored the Giants' defense in two Super Bowl wins, and won the NFL Most Valuable Player award in 1996, when he recorded a career-high 20.5 sacks. LT was named the NFL Defensive Player of the Year in 1981, 1982, and 1986, and was selected to 10 Pro Bowls during his career.

Emotional induction | Life goes on | Learning from mistakes | Lasting legacy | Tuna and LT | Personal struggles | Battling demons

Emotional induction

CNN/SI: What will your emotions be like when you are about to step to the podium for the ceremony?

Lawrence Taylor: I think I will be very controlled. I can control my emotions -- of course it is a great thing, one probably the greatest things that has happened to me in my entire life and to have my family there and all the people that you really care about and my son of course he is delivering my induction speech, now of course. I will be smiling from ear to ear, but I will control myself because I already know the love that my kids and my family have for me. I already know that so it won't be something like it is just hitting me all out of the blue. I know the love they have for me, and they know the love I have for them.

'I am as strong as they come mentally'

CNN/SI: Any regrets at all about doing everything to the fullest?

LT: You look back on it and you say, 'I wish things would happen this way. I wish I was playing now instead of then.' Of course you have regrets but life goes on. You can't sit there, or worry about it because it's already been written. All you can do is go forward. And one thing I think my trials and tribulations have done for me is make me stronger as a person. I am as strong as they come mentally because I've gone through a lot, and some self-inflicted, some not. But I have gone through a lot, and I can offer my wisdom if there's any, to other people who go through the same problems.

Learning from his mistakes

CNN/SI: What do you want young people to learn from your struggles?

LT: Well the only thing to learn, I talk to my kids all the time and I tell them the problems. When I have a problem, I tell them other problems and I guess the best way to tell somebody something is to show them. There is no crime in falling down. The crime is not getting back up. And that's basically what you tell young people. You're going to make mistakes. Life is like that. We were all born the same, we will make mistakes. Fight your way back up because you're going to be stronger for it. Don't be afraid to fall, be afraid not to get up.

Lasting legacy

CNN/SI: How do you want to be remembered?

LT: I would like to be remembered as one of the best defensive players to ever play the game. Played with intensity, hustle, willing to give it all to the game. I mean a guy who really loved the game of football but not only loved the game of football, but in his personal life when he fell, he had a knack of getting up. He had a way, he always had that little knack, he always seemed to get up no matter how far he fell down, he always had a way of getting up. And I'm always going to get up. Nobody's ever going to knock me down for the final count.

Tuna and LT

CNN/SI: You and Bill Parcells have a unique relationship. Why do you click?

LT: I think Bill and myself clicked so well because we are basically the same people, as far as our mental toughness goes, as far as our recklessness goes, as far as our desires. Bill, at times, can be one arrogant person, and I can also. We just click. And I often asked myself the question, if I had gone anywhere else, would I have still been a great player? Yes, I would have been a great player, but doing different things. I was happy, and very fortunate enough to have a coach that allowed me to do what I do, or do what I can do, and then implement it into the defense. Or have the defense and then have me in variations where I can do certain things. I remember from the first day, well not the first day but when, I made a lot of mistakes my rookie year, I remember Bill coming to me and saying, 'Listen, okay, you want to do it your way, you can do it your way until you screw it up. When you screw it up, then you got to do it my way.' And he gave me that freedom to do that. But Bill would allow myself and some other players to do it the way they can do it as long as they get the job done. And fortunately, they allowed me to do that for 10 years.

With him showing that type of confidence in me, I guess we just grew stronger and stronger, and closer and closer, until a point where, I felt safe to go to him with any other problem, because I know we we're going to sit there. We're going to talk it out, and he's going to give me his advice, but he's not going to dictate to me what I have to do. He's going to actually let me come up with the answer he had in mind in the first place. But that is what made our relationship so strong. The first day we started cussing each other out because just, I couldn't take that. I mean, hey, you've got to either trade me or get somebody else in, because I ain't going to listen to this thing for six years, you know, for how long my contract was for. I'm like, hey, I'm not going to listen to this mess for six years. But I think after that first day, after we got into it, after we got in that big argument, after that day, we understood each other, and we had a good time from then on.

Personal struggles

CNN/SI: How is your personal life?

LT: You know what, I take inventory of my personal life all the time, you know. Am I happy? I think I'm probably happier now than I've ever been in my life. Not because, I'm getting older, wiser and more subdued and stuff, but things are coming at a slower pace, a pace that I can handle. I feel at peace with myself. As far as mentally, I think I am very strong mentally. Physically, I could use a little work. Spiritually, I am stronger now than I ever was, and I can see that I care more. I've always cared about people but I'm more receptive to people now.

In the past, I've really damaged myself doing for other people. I mean that's one thing about me, I'll do anything for anybody, and sometimes that creates a problem. Now, I'm more selective as far as what I do, and I do worry more about how is, how will others see this before I do it. You know, in the past, I was like, hey, I'll do it, regardless. The hell with what anybody says. Of course, that may be one way a person may live depending on who he is. I'm more conscious about my surroundings now, as far as what goes on and what, the proper way of doing things. I am happy with myself, I mean I am pretty well at peace now.

Battling the demons

CNN/SI: Do you feel like the demons are out of your life?

LT: Out of my life? The demons will always be there. Always. But, you know, you can always fight demons. There are tools with us to fight demons. And you fight demons with angels. And people surrounding you, which I call them angels, different people in your life. I've got some good people in my life now. I've had some good people in my life before, and wasn't smart enough to listen to those people. But I have some good people in my life, I am happy with my life.

I don't have everything that I want in the world, but it's just a want. I have everything I need in this world and I tell you, my kids, over this period of trial and tribulation, they've shown me that they love me so much and that's stronger than anything. And you know there's a lot of times when I just didn't, when they was growing up, I just didn't put the time in. It's the little things that make you happy. The demons are still there, but I got more angels, or good people, or more tools at hand, to fight those demons, so I don't worry about those demons as much.


 
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