It is only when Jocson is riding that all of her anxieties seem to disappear. She becomes completely focused on the race. "You almost go blind. Like when you hear about people who go blind with rage, and they do things they don't even remember later," she says. "You hardly remember. You get into a locus and you get into a drive, and nothing else matters. You don't hear anything. You know there are horses coming and you can't lose your concentration. I get real aggressive. I can sit like a saint and wait like a saint, but I can get real aggressive, too, and I get ahead and hold it. I just dig in and dig in, dig in. I mean I never stop."