why I'm retiring," I said. "I'm not looking for anything from
Cleveland. I have to play in Boston or I can't play anywhere."
to the deal?"
know," I said.
I was worried,
unhappy, scared, hurt. I really didn't know what would happen to the deal. As
soon as my retirement announcement came out, the Indians and the Red Sox agreed
to freeze all the players involved until the situation was resolved. That meant
five other guys—Siebert, Romo, Azcue, Ellsworth and Pizarro—couldn't play, even
though all were in their new uniforms.
The next day I had
a call from Gabe Paul, president of the Indians. He asked me to come to New
York for a meeting at "21." Woolf and I went and met Gabe in the
upstairs dining room. He was alone in a corner booth.
We talked for a
long time about everything but me—basketball, Bobby's clients, our steaks,
oldtime ballplayers. Gabe's career as a baseball executive. (He started as a
shoeshine boy at the ball park in Rochester, N.Y., where he grew up.)
Gabe finally got
around to the point. "Come to Cleveland, Hawk," he said. "Don't
wreck this trade. You love baseball. Look how you'll hurt it if you don't play.
Five other ballplayers, two ball clubs, a major trade hang on your decision to
play or not to play. This situation has got to be resolved and you're the only
one who can do it."
Bobby spent a long
time showing Paul what it meant to me in dollars and cents to leave Boston. As
Paul listened, then suggested nothing new, I started to get annoyed. All he
said was he had never heard of a situation like this before and that I couldn't
retire. You'd think that the whole structure of baseball was at stake. We
didn't get anything resolved except the dinner check, which Paul paid. Woolf
and I took a 2 a.m. plane back to Boston.
when Woolf walked into his office at 10 there was a message to call Bowie Kuhn,
the new baseball commissioner. Kuhn asked if he and I would come to his office
for a meeting.
said. "I don't want to talk to anybody. I've retired and I'm going to stay
retired. I'm not going to New York or anywhere else."