"I think it's
my bed...I mean, my heart."
"Vladimir,
what are you talking about?"
In a dormitory
room they were sharing a couple of years ago at the high-altitude training
center at Tsahkadzor in Soviet Armenia, the swimmer and his psychologist lay in
their beds and listened.
"That's what
it is," Salnikov insisted.
"It can't
be," said Gennady Gorbunov, the psychologist.
It was. So
violently was Salnikov's heart beating—a result of the strenuous physical pace
he was putting himself through each day—that the legs of his bed had begun to
throb, too.
"Sometimes in
workouts," says teammate Aleksandr Chayev, "I am unwillingly pulled
along with him. It just leads you into a dead end. Your nervous system just
can't take it anymore, and he's still going."
At a certain
point in long-distance training, the mind asks for permission to leave the
room. The swimmer must find a way—without surrendering to hallucination—to keep
the pain in his body from flooding his head. Australia's Steve Holland kept
going by visualizing a shark at his heels. Goodell pictured his brain casing as
the cockpit of a 747. "Everything might be shaking and rumbling in the body
of the plane, but up front I couldn't feel any of it," Goodell says.
"Everything was smooth."
Salnikov blocks
pain two ways: "I play music in my head. Pat Benatar. Supertramp, the
Eagles or Electric Light Orchestra. Or I'll picture myself in a motion picture.
I'll be Superman and the bad guys are chasing me. I'll be a cowboy and the
Indians are chasing me."
Some nights, his
muscles twitch involuntarily as he sleeps, and he pummels his wife. "I wake
up all worried. 'Is she alive, is she O.K.?' She puts the pillow over her head
for protection." Another time, he swam himself into such total depletion
that he insisted Marina's blood test was faulty when it revealed no illness.
"I yelled at her," he admits sheepishly.